Something bout' this world consumes me
Never thought I'd feel this lonely
But I know that one day you will find
All the pieces of your heart were mine

How you try to justify this
Makes me wanna cry in silence
But I know it's one step at a time
Maybe you were never really mine

And I'll tell you in the middle of the night
Maybe screaming, but at least you'll know I tried
Cause I know you might be, "trying" but barely
It was hurting me this whole time

Why you gotta test my patience?
I'm honestly better sedated
Having trouble finding reasons why
It's not hard for you to say goodbye

Say goodbye
Say goodbye
Say goodbye

You used up all the smiles I had
So don't call it anger management
It's so tough enough to see the light
Sometimes you make me wanna die

And I'll tell you in the middle of the night
Maybe screaming, but at least you'll know I tried
Cause I know you might be
Trying but barely
It was hurting me

And I'll tell you

Cause I know you might be, trying but barely
It was hurting me this whole time

Am I emotional
Or not available?
To be right by your side
Why can't you read my mind?

Am I responsible
For the cries I don't show?
If It'll be alright
Why do I feel so tired?

I know you want happy endings
But lately I'm tired of pretending
That all the things that you do don't cut deep

Wish I could wake from your nightmare
When we talk it's like you're not there
Do you understand you're hurting me?

How do I tell you I lost myself
I need some help
And I just want to be okay

Over obsessing about why you doubt me
It feels like hell
It drives me mad to feel this way

But how do I tell you I lost myself
I needed help
But you just get right in my way
Over obsessing about what I dealt
It's over now

I lost myself
To let you stay
Oh I let you stay
Oh I let you stay

Am I emotionless
Or just not important?
You say I love to hurt
It's so convenient

Am I indecisive
Or don't like the options
Now what does true love cost?
If it's so reckless

I know you want happy endings
But lately I'm tired of pretending
That all the things that you do don't cut deep

Wish I could wake from your nightmare
When we talk it's like you're not there
Do you understand you're hurting me?

How do I tell you I lost myself
I need some help
And I just want to be okay

Over obsessing about why you doubt me
It feels like hell
It drives me mad to feel this way

But how do I tell you I lost myself
I needed help
But you just get right in my way
Over obsessing about what I dealt
It's over now

I lost myself
To let you stay
Oh I let you stay
Oh I let you stay

I wonder why I get frustrated at the things you say
I wonder why I have to scream to just communicate
I wonder why I beg to leave but you force me to stay
And to stay
And to stay
And to stay for what

I wonder why I go on about slamming all the doors
I wonder why I reply to people I should ignore
I wonder why it's so hard to love when I'm insecure
And so what?
And so what?
And so what

Oh, you noticed my bloody eyes (finally)
But you won't wonder why

Burned in every lie you told me
Apologize in the morning
But you don't care and it's showing
Maybe you, don't love me

Why must you continue shouting
I pray one day you'll understand me
I fell for you, I was drowning
Yet you wonder, why I'm asking

Don't wonder why you can never think right before you speak
Don't wonder why all my emotions you keep dismissing
Don't wonder why I have to walk on eggshells if I sing
Anything
Anything
Anything, la la

Don't wonder why I never go out just to see my friends
Don't wonder why I can't trust you with all my messages
Don't wonder why we're unapologetically a mess
Isn't it? Isn't it? Isn't it

Oh, you noticed my bloody eyes (finally)
But you won't wonder why

Burned in every lie you told me
Apologize in the morning
But you don't care and it's showing
Maybe you, don't love me

Why must you continue shouting
I pray one day you'll understand me
I fell for you, I was drowning
Yet you wonder, why I'm asking

You wonder, why I'm asking
You wonder, why I'm asking
You wonder, why I'm asking
You wonder
You wonder
You wonder

You wonder, why I'm asking
You wonder, why I'm asking
You wonder, why I'm asking
You wonder
You wonder
You wonder

Blah blah blah
Why why why

Sitting on a bus
I think I have a crush
You're looking at her while I'm
Making our memoir

At the window sill
Planning the reveal
I'm just not prepared to know
Exactly how you feel

You can't say that you don't want me
You know I can do it better than her
I know how you take your coffee
Your hair strands still live in my favorite sweater

When you asked can you keep a secret
I swore you were gonna confess your love
But then you said: "Can you believe it?"
Yeah I think, I think I'm in love with...

He doesn't swing that way
But nothing wind can't change
Like my childhood therapist said
"Don't try to be so straight"

I think he's had enough
He's tired of her games
And honestly if I were you
I'd never make me wait

You can't say that you don't want me
You know I can do it better than her
I know how you take your coffee
Your hair strands still live in my favorite sweater

When you asked can you keep a secret
I swore you were gonna confess your love
But then you said: "Can you believe it?"
Yeah I think, I think I'm in love with...

HER?!
HER?!
HER?!
HER?!
HER?!
HER?!
HER?!
HER?!
HER?!

You can't say that you don't want me
You know I can do it better than her
I know how you take your coffee
Your hair strands still live in my favorite sweater

When you asked can you keep a secret
I swore you were gonna confess your love
But then you said can you believe it
I think , I think I'm in love with
Her

You can't say that you don't want me
You know I can do it better than her
I know how you take your coffee
Your hair strands still live in my favorite sweater

When you asked can you keep a secret
I swore you were gonna confess your love
But then you said: "Can you believe it?"
Yeah I think, I think I'm in love with...

Oh babyboy
You think that I'm crying?
You think that I'm writing, these sad songs about you?

You thought that you would hurt me?
You thought I was scared you'd leave?
But that could matter less to me

Heartbreakers all around here
You ain't the only one
You thought I didn't notice
I acted pretty dumb

You thought you were so special?
You thought you really won
Oh no he didn't answer
I said

Don't come back to me
Don't mention my name
It's too much of a luxury
You can't even afford the taste

It's sad you don't know how to love
And maybe that's okay
Cause you really only wanted us
When I took the steps to walk away

And if I gave you the
The chase
And if I now make you
Wait

Consider all the
All the stakes
One day you'll have to
Pay

(For the chase)

Oh babygirl
You think that I meant it?
You really think I'm oblivious?
You can't play a detective cause
I'll solve it in a second

You really think you don't lie?
When you falsified your alibi?
It's like you didn't learn from last time

You crave all the attention
But it's never enough
Cause you think if we're "just friends"
Then you can't do no wrong

You thought you were so special?
I knew it right from the start
Oh now he doesn't answer
I said

Don't come back to me (to me)
Don't mention my name (my name)
It's too much of a luxury (too much of a luxury)
You can't even afford the taste

Its sad you don't know how to love (to love)
And maybe that's okay (okay)
Cause you really only wanted us
When I took the steps to walk away

And if I gave you the
The chase
And if I now make you
Wait

Consider all the
All the stakes
One day you'll have to

Pay

For the chase

Don't come back to me
Just forget my name
It's too much of a luxury
You can't even afford the chase

One day I came home by surprise
And I saw the fear in your eyes
When I saw him

I watch you pack your bags and go
But I know "it's not your fault"
No, it never is

He calls and I can't pick up (hello?)
Think he caught on to my bluff
He wants another chance

"Sorry didn't mean to hurt"
Can't trust any of your words
Not sorry, I don't give a damn

So now he, wants redemption for his actions
So I, make him think he's still an option
Now he eats out the palm of my hand
Carries out my illicit demands

I still, take him back just to hurt him
To hurt him

So one night when he's fast asleep
I go pour the gasoline
Over his things

He's waking up with smoken lungs
Think it's boiling up his blood
A lovely flame, but

He calls and I can't pick up (damn)
Think he caught on to my bluff
He wants another chance

Sorry didn't mean to burn
Your car and all of your shirts
Not sorry, I don't give a damn

So now he, wants redemption for his actions
So I, make him think he's still an option
Now he eats out the palm of my hand
Carries out my illicit demands

I still, take him back just to hurt him
To hurt him

I'm foolish
Why would I do this
And now I'm out of control
I'm breaking things as I go
Just enough to tear me up

While I'm crying
I'm in love with your
Sweaty palms on my arms
The face you thought was so flawed
The lips I kissed as you left my car

And I'm still here
Thinking about the day we met
All of the things I could've said
Then maybe you'd be here instead I

Pray tonight
Hoping that one day you'll be mine
It's like my soul knows this ain't right
Please don't leave my heart to die like this

It's so foolish
Cause I knew you'd do this
"I'm not going anywhere"
Turned into "I just don't care"
Abandoned me at fragile times

And now I'm crying
Hate that I'm in love with...
A boy who won't understand
Gets high when he's in demand
And keeps me as his second plan

But I'm still here
Thinking of every second left
All of the things you never did
Then maybe we'd be here instead

I prayed last night
Hoping to get you off my mind
It's like my soul knows this ain't right
Please don't leave my heart to die like this

But you did
Oh, you did
Left to die like this

Oh you did
You left

My heart
To
Die
Like
This...

Everyone forgets the damage you do
They won't mention the hell you put em through
But it was you

It's like when you die
You're a saint in their eyes, and
All that they do is cry to sleep

But did they really care, when
You were alive, or
If you survived, or even pitied

And I know you were young,
Still naive, called it fun
While you're hurting the ones
That gave you all their love

I'm not saying you weren't important to me
I'm just tired of the cries, the lies and longing

Like why did you have to do -
Why did you hurt me
While I was still in her womb
Why did you think it was such a fine thing to do
Like I'd never find out
Like I wouldn't lash out

Like, I made you my hero
Tried to convince me
That she couldn't love me so
But she's the reason that I care for others more
And she never tainted
All your claims were just specious

At the wake, are you dreamin'
Sang my heart, for your peace and
Wouldn't know, that I'd relive this day
(Relive it all over again)

Through the years and the seasons
Everything changed for a reason
At only twelve
I learned how to break

I could live a whole new life
But you'll never see it with your own eyes
Never hear the songs I sing

I've relived every emotion
What I'd give just to get that closure
And I know I'd die trying
Again and again and again and again

Had I called at 2am
Had I followed my intuitive feeling
I wouldn't hold all your voicemails at stake

And that guilt, now it haunts me
Everyone says it's not on me
But how would they know:
I was awake!

But you live a different life
I don't know what year it is in your time
And I feared I wouldn't be ready for this

I've relived every emotion
What I'd give just to get that closure
And I know I'd die trying
Again and again and again and again

And I
Might drown
In a salty river of sorrows
My heart is still hollow
From when you went to the

Sky oh why am I
Still now
Needin a savior
From reckless behaviors
I wanted to give up

But I'm scared
That I'll forget you and
I don't understand it
I cannot accept this
I won't believe
I won't believe you're gone

I'll close my eyes
To see you again

At the wake now
You were dreaming
After I sang, all my feelings
How you hug me again

And each time I'm
Slowly healing
You visit us
November's feeling
So blue again

Well I've lived a whole new life
At the end, it was just right
Close my eyes, just to see you again
And finally put you to rest

We were meant to be lovers in other dimensions
Hiding under these covers, memories I invented
Like the ones where you never lied
I never had to fake a smile
But you're using up your selfish exceptions

I tried so hard to forget
Said there's no magic
Got your letter of intent
And it's so tragic

You're pleading the fifth to me
It always happens
It's like betrayal I foresee
You can't imagine

Just cause you didn't mean it
Don't mean it doesn't hurt
And when I'm breaking down
You try to make it worse

Just cause you didn't mean it
Don't mean it doesn't hurt
And now I'm breaking down

We were meant to be lovers in other dimensions
Hiding under these covers, memories I invented
Like the ones where you never lied
I never had to fake a smile
But you're using up your selfish exceptions

We were meant to be lovers in other dimensions
Holding on to those fragments of our fragile connection
And in the realm that I was in
Loving you wasn't a sin
And you, wouldn't have to resort to deception
But we're not in that dimension

No we're not in that dimension

When I tried to call 911
You took the phone, pulled out the gun
You mentioned how it was you who's afraid

You barricade the door
You said no one would love you more
You screamed, "don't leave me...I'm sorry"

Okay...

And in that moment fear took hold
The sirens wailed outside my door
I heard it was, cause Sally passed away

I tried so hard to intervene
I made my purpose to be seen
I just wanted to be taken that day

And die happily...

But that never happened

We were meant to be lovers in every dimension
Don't think anyone knows it
But I think they'll suspect it
And when they notice all the signs
They'll say he didn't have to die
But now, it'll be too late for interventions
Cause we're not in that dimension

Some days don't wanna fight, just
Wanna live another life, what
I would give to be alright, I
Think of it like every night, I

Hit the bed and lock the door, I
Break the mirror cause it's torture
Don't feel it clearer as I'm older

Red wine would spill across this floor
Echoes of love, a distant lore
Tell me it's not too late, to just
Walk my way, cause I've been
Stranded in this stained room before

Tangle my words like threads undone
In silence the battle is won
And it's not the same but our
Hearts might break cause I've been
Stranded in this stained room before

And it won't be the same
Cause our hearts will break
Cause I've been
Stranded in this stained room before

Before you decide to just leave
Tell me that you hate me please
Put your shoes on, don't you wait
If I were you, I'd walk away

Never should've made a mess
I know you didn't deserve this
Pour some wine to reminisce
Cause your love's the one thing that I miss

Now we're laughing at our old movies
And the rough patch back in 23'
How it seemed like that would never end
All the back and forth until it did

Now I lift the glass to take a sip
And you're staring asking, "so that's it?"
I remember our true love story
How so much could change on May 15th

Then I went to pour a second drink
And let go of all the toxic shit
But the bottle landed on the floor
Almost like we'd been right here before

Red wine would spill across this floor
Echoes of love, a distant lore
Tell me it's not too late, to just
Walk my way, cause I've been
Stranded in this stained room before

Tangle my words like threads undone
In silence the battle is won
And it's not the same but our
Hearts might break, yeah I've been
Stranded in this stained room before

What a shock
Such a shame
That I'm here
Who's to blame
But it's true

Wont deny
What I feel
Was it love
Was it real
Not to you

So why keep me close
When you hurt me most
Thought it could be something more

It was hard to trust
Someone that gave up
Cause I cared when you let go

I still don't understand these unresolved conversations
Was it bad timing, or miscommunication
Did you really do it when you went on vacation
You said to be patient, turned off your location

I still don't understand these unresolved conversations
I was holding on with so much blood on the pavement
Every form of torture can't compare when I'm waiting
You love that I'm waiting

It's like you want me to hate you now

And isn't it easier
To let my mind spiral on it
On it (On it)

You're busy, it's clearer
That I'm not important
Important (Important)

And isn't it easier
To let my mind spiral on it
On it (On it)

You're busy, it's clearer
That I'm not important

He wanted a diamond
So bright that it's blinding
But I only had these paper rings

And is it surprising
That the love I gave was dying?
For he only saw material things

He chased after the heavens
Told me he wasn't ready
But one day is all he took to
Forget everything

Followed him through the meadows
Destroyed all of my petals
Love me or love me not
It wasn't worth a thing

And now I'm left with paper rings

He needed love and attention
But not the kind they mention
On every tabloid magazine

Cause he was a hunter
And we were star-crossed lovers
But that changed when he intervened

Chased me cause I was heaven
Told him I wasn't ready
But one touch is all it took to
Get me to believe

He followed through the meadow
Repairs all of my petals
And the 'J' around his neck is
Everything to me

And now he wears my paper rings

You're so, you're so divine
Make me feel so alive
Turn my water to wine
He's all I'll ever need

I want, want what you got
Unconditional love
My face in all your thoughts
He's all I'll ever see

You're so, you're so divine
Make me feel so alive
Turn my water to wine
I'm all you'll ever need

I want, want what you got
Unconditional love
My face in all your thoughts
I'm all he'll ever see

Let's talk about it
Can't we?
When you hold me tight sometimes
I can't breathe

But let's be honest
Can't we?
I'll bear the fear of almost dying
Just to have you next to me

And I'll say
(and I'll say)
I need space
(I need space)
Just so I can hear you tell me that you'll never walk away

And we stay
(and we stay)
We float away
(we float away)
You're the only moon I want and that's the only one I need for me

I keep you in my orbit
You keep me in your orbit
I keep you in my orbit
Orbit

Let's wish about it
Come true
When I wanna see the world
I see you

Let's dance around it
Want to?
Not even meteors destroy
The universe that holds us two

And I'll say
(and I'll say)
I need space
(I need space)
Just so I can hear you tell me that you'll never walk away

And we stay
(and we stay)
We float away
(we float away)
You're the only moon I want and that's the only one I need for me

I keep you in my orbit
You keep me in your orbit
I keep you in my orbit

I love you in my orbit
I keep you in my orbit
You keep me in your orbit
Orbit

Surviving all these rocky showers
Taste of you is sweet, devour
Could not stop loving you from
Galaxies away

Never understood your power
Could be with you for, light hours
Never had a doubt that you'd
Be the one for me

And I'll say
I need space
Just so I can hear you tell me that you'll never walk away

And we stay
(and we stay)
We float away
(we float away)
You're the only moon I want and that's the only one I need for me

I keep you in my orbit
You keep me in your orbit
I keep you in my orbit
Orbit

I keep you in my orbit
You keep me in your orbit
I keep you in my orbit
Orbit

In the moonlight you're searching
For a love you don't know yet
And you're acting so shy
Being lost in my eyes
You're so one of a kind

I see your shadow ain't patient
You let your mind overtake it
Now let me ruin your plans
While I'm grabbing your hands

I heard you're out there looking
For me
But don't you know my love is free?
Baby, I can guarantee
It's sweet like candy

And I
Won't deny
You got a face I'd like to try
I listen cause you're so divine
You're sweet like candy

I heard you're out there looking
For me
But don't you know my love is free?
Baby, I can guarantee
It's sweet like candy

And I
Won't deny
You got a face I'd like to try
I listen cause you're so divine
You're sweet like candy

In the starlight you shine bright
Think I knew you in past lives
Still remember the taste
From your lips to your waist
I just can't look away now

Now you got me enchanted
And all you did was just walk in
I know all your intentions
Did I not mention that?

I heard you're out there looking
For me
But don't you know my love is free?
Baby, I can guarantee
It's sweet like candy

And I
Won't deny
You got a face I'd like to try
I listen cause you're so divine
You're sweet like candy

I heard you're out there looking
For me
But don't you know my love is free?
Baby, I can guarantee
It's sweet like candy

And I
Won't deny
You got a face I'd like to try
I listen cause you're so divine
You're sweet like candy

(You're sweet like candy)

You're sweet like candy